If it’s meant to be…you make it happen!

There’s a saying that I used to live by. It made me feel safe and better about not having the things that I wanted. 

And that saying is,

If it’s meant to be, it will be. Or it will happen somehow.

I remember this as the first lesson that I learned on the path of progression.

I was on my way to becoming an initiate. 

I had just been Life Activated and reached a new level of awareness, happiness, and creative expression. I spent a lot of days in the sun, I had just fallen in love with a new man, and my being was full of new energy and life was bright. 

And I knew that going into the Mystery School was what I wanted.

The Empower Thyself class was usually taught on a weekend at the end of the month.

At the time, I was working at a popular coffee shop. As far as my life’s career, I had tried a few things like musical projects, basic college courses, and massage school, but I didn’t actually know what direction to go into and I did not make a choice as I lived by the phrase,

If it’s meant to be, it will be.

Or the universe will make it happen and bring it to me.

And I want whatever the universe wants for me!… (because I didn’t actually know what I wanted, because I didn’t know who I was…")

If I was meant to be a musician, I would have met someone by chance and they would take me under their wing to teach me all they know and I would become a well known singer!

Or if I was meant to be an engineer or a doctor, studying and good grades would have come easily to me.

Or even if I was supposed to do massage work, I would have gotten my license already which at the time I had finished school, but still had assignments and tuition owed. 

It was all supposed to be easy and handed to me. It seemed that way for everyone else who was doing what they wanted to do. This was the way I used to think.

And so, I just worked minimum wage at a coffee shop to pay my credit card debt off and also maybe get somewhere with paying off school. 

And I at first believed I could apply this way of living to the up-coming Empower Thyself class.

Two weeks out, I wasn’t scheduled to work at the coffee shop on that weekend. And I saw that as my chance to go to the class.

“Yes! It’s meant to be!!” I said.

The Thursday before the class, I received an email saying that I was scheduled to work a shift on that Saturday, day 1 of Empower Thyself.

I looked down, and said maybe this isn’t what I’m supposed to do.

I told my teacher about it. Aaron said, if you actually want to do this, or anything in your life, you need to create space for it.

And so I had another month to decide. 

It was during the weekend that I would have been at Empower Thyself that I had my first experience of gazing into the eyes of my lover at golden hour, laying on the top of the grassy hill at Barton springs.

It was pure bliss and also in that moment that I heard the footsteps of the person who gave me my Life Activation. James. 

“Why aren’t you at Empower Thyself?” he asked as he looked into my eyes.

I shoo’d him away for interrupting my moment of paradise and said I would go next month…but it lead me to really think and even now think back…what stopped me?

It was this “If it’s meant to be, it will be” saying that I lived by.

Which is what we say to ourselves when we don’t believe we’re worthy of going out and doing what our soul is calling for us to do and go after. 

It’s what we say when we don’t believe we’re strong enough or worthy enough to be who we are meant to be, to put in the effort to really dig and direct energy.

When we don’t want to be responsible for the fate of our lives and be in control of what we actually do have control over, we leave it to chance. We give up. 

It’s what I said to myself believing that leaving it all to chance would take me where I belong.

And that is a lie. 

I made sure to request off from my job for the weekend of the following months Empower Thyself. And it as granted.

I put in my deposit to secure my spot. Doing this anchored in the transformational energy that I would experience in the class in that point in time.

And just like in my experience when signing up to receive Life Activation, things continued to shift that opened the way for me to arrive at class.

The only thing left to stop me was myself. And I did not!